A place where I will put stuff that doesn't neatly fit into any other catagories and where I will do my best to keep bad spelling and typos down to a bare minimum. :)
Friday, October 29, 2004
posted by Carol at
9:43 AM (Pacific)
So my posts are are more likely to be daily-ish rather than daily.
I feel cruddy today. My back is killing me. Myself, DH and son#1 have all been complaining of backaches this week. We'd better not be coming down with the flu. I've been sleeping on the sofa alot due to my latest bout of insomnia so thats where mine is most likely coming from. Who knows? Maybe the men are just having sympathy pains. (yeah, right)
I think I'm going to get a 6-pack of beer for the weekend. My beer-of-choice lately has been Amstel Light. Its the best tasting light beer I've tried. 95 calories, i think and it actually tastes like beer. A friend of mine drinks Mic Ultra *ugh*, that stuff tastes like water with some yeast stirred into it *shudder* We'll be having pizza tonight for supper. Friday night is ALWAYS pizza night here. I'm not a big beer drinker but beer and pizza just go down SO well together.
Since we are on the topic of booze today let me also share with you my favorite liquor.
Vodka, specifically, Stoli Vodka. It is THE best vodka I've ever tried, not that I've tried alot, but once you've tasted Stoli none of the cheaper brands can compare. Its alittle spendy, about $20 a bottle, but ohso good. In shots, it goes down soooo smooth and easy, like drinking liquid velvet. We have a bottle of plain, unflavored Stoli right now, its fabu, but I like the vanilla flavored even better. I love to mix it in diet coke and it makes a really, really good Lemon Drop, pure liquid candy.
The only problem is that it tastes so good its really easy to drink far to much of it before you realize what you're doing.
Lemon Drop
sugar the rim of a shot glass
sugar a wedge of lemon
pour 1 oz Vodka into sugared shot glass
Shoot the shot, immediately suck the sugared lemon.
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
posted by Carol at
9:23 AM (Pacific)
I could not get to sleep last night. I went to bed and laid there for an hour with my mind spinning in circles. I thought and thought and worried and worried and stewed and fretted and worked myself up into a big knot.
I went out to the sofa around midnight and ended up bawling, absolutely bawling as hard as I could but w/o making a sound so I didn't wake up the kids or the husband. I wept over so much, too many things to even begin to list here. Although, as I was typing these sentences it dawned on me that I never really cried when my MIL died. Oh, I let a few tears trickle down my face at the funeral, but I didn't, I couldn't let myself really, truly cry.
I felt really, really, really good to bawl even if I did it silently, into a pillow, with a blanket over my head. At least I did it. :) I was very peaceful afterward, very calm, very still inside. I decided then that even if it takes me until I'm 45, I'm going to get a bachelors. I'm not sure for what yet, I'm not sure how or when or where, but, damnit, this is one dream I am NOT giving up.
My youngest son is almost 12. Even if I have to wait until he's 18 to go back, I'll only be 40. 4 years of school will make me 44, I've heard of older graduates. :)
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
posted by Carol at
9:29 AM (Pacific)
brainstorming here-
bachelor Degree-4 years
Special Ed
Social Work
Community College- aprox 2 years or less
Paralegal
Medical Transcription
Medical Assistant
Office Administration w/Legal and/or Medical Specialty
Certified Message Therapist
No schooling-
sign up as a Temp and get some office onthejob training and experience. I already know how to type, use a computer, answer the phone, etc.
try to get a County job; court clerk, office assistant, there's a opening for a 911 dispatcher on the website now. They must burnout fast, about every 6 months or so they're hiring a new one.
try to get in at the hospital. Food service, housekeeping. I can type and run a computer, receptionist, admitting, etc. I keep my eye on the job opening website and they're usually hiring in those departments.
I could start my own business, maybe clean houses. I've always thought a dog-poop scooping business would be lucrative. I've done some research on that one, other folks have started them up and are doing quite well with it. If I go into massage therapy I could start my own office too.
Need to-
contact colleges and find out admissions, $$, etc.
contact private schools and find out admissions, $$, etc.
maybe go talk to Temp agencies and HR at the hospital, county. How hireable am I right now and what they are looking for educationwise in an employee.
research starting a home business.
take Spanish lessons. that step alone is going to make me highly marketable in this area.
(thanks for the supportive comments, ladies. They help!)
Monday, October 25, 2004
posted by Carol at
1:42 PM (Pacific)
Either blogger is slow this afternoon or its my computer, I can't tell which.
I thoroughly depressed myself last week. Worked myself all into a big, ugly funk. Why?
It began by my eldest son deciding that he wants to try and complete his highschool work and graduate when he is 17. This is approximately 1 1/2 years away. At most, he plans on it taking 2 years. 2 years from now, he'll be graduated and more than likely starting college somewhere. Middle son will be starting high school in 2 years and youngest son will enter high school in 3 years. We're planning on the two younger boys attending school somewhere. I'm not all that hot on our towns public high school so its more than likely going to be an area private school.
I will have to return to work in order to finance this. That's fine with me, now all I have to do is figure out what the he** I am going to do. I really want to go back to school somewhere and get some sort of degree or certification or something. But what? The more I thought about it, I realized that my favorite job was when I was assisting in a pre-school class of handicapped and developmentally delayed toddlers. I loved that job. I thought at first I could be a pre-school teacher, but there isn't much money at all in that. Then the thought occurred to me that I could go get a Special Education degree. No, I wouldn't get rich, but it'd be a little higher up on the pay scale than preschool teacher. So, that would take me 4 years to complete a bachelors degree. Not only would that take too much time but I would be almost 40 years old when I got done.
FORTY!
(well, 39 to be exact but you get the picture)
Forty.
*sigh*
It just seems so old, so adult, so grownup. So, not me.
Who would want to hire a 40 year old special-ed teacher fresh out of college?
I just kinda felt (and still do to a certain extent) that my life is halfover already and that I've missed most of it. Crazy thinking, yes, I know.
I've looked into taking classes at the community college and I think that's what I'm going to do. I can start next year and be done in 2 years. I'm thinking about either Medical Assisting, Office Administration with a specialty in either Medical, Legal or both. I've also thought about becoming a Paralegal.
Maybe, I'll just go be a waitress. Or a stripper, there was an ad in our paper for dancers. Maybe. Maybe if I was 10 years younger, 20 pounds lighter and not somebody's mother. Who wants to see Mom take her clothes off anyways? HA!
Sunday, October 24, 2004
posted by Carol at
9:49 AM (Pacific)
phoeey.
I really, truly meant it when I said I wanted to blog more. I meant it, I intended to buckle down and do it, I wanted to do it. In the end, I didn't, obviously. That tends to be my standard MOA, lots of good intentions, ideas, plans, plots, etc but in the end inertia tends to win out.
I want to stop doing this. I NEED to stop doing this.
SO here we'll go again, another chapter of starting over in my life. Maybe the 36,000 time will be the charm.
(Please, no breath holding)
I'm in a foul mood, as usual. I've got WAY too much stress and crap going on in my life. We've got family problems on both my side and still with the flucked-up crazy SIL. Hubby has a court date on Friday at 2 pm, its all gonna hit the fan. She's finally gonna have to account for all this crap in front of the judge. And, she's gonna lie and whine and have all sorts of histrionics in the court room to try and get out of the mess she's made. I'll be interested to see if she can get away with it again. I'm expecting she will, she's always seem to weasel her way out of it. If she can't bully and intimidate her way out, she'll whine and cry and play the victim and there is always some poor, willing stupid sucker ready willing and waiting to bail her sorry ass out.
*bah*
My back is killing me, we spent the weekend down at my folks and 2 nights of sleeping on their sofa sleeper has really messed up my back.
I need an advil.
And a stiff martini, vodka, extra dry, make it dirty.
